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Bitched on the Thursday, March 31, 2005.

Its a nice song. with a touching Music vid. Kiss - because im a girl sighs. makes me wonder. why did i ever let her go. but sighs.

- gary went ~~psycho~~10:02 PM

woohoo. finally found it. tong hua mv! http://nexstorm.com/tonghua.wmv

- gary went ~~psycho~~6:27 PM

haha one of my fav songs.

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
[Until the end]

- gary went ~~psycho~~6:25 PM

Bitched on the Wednesday, March 30, 2005.

oh my fuckin god. what the hell is happening. god. this fuckin sucks. my email from hotmail, the password is changed. my email from spymac got deleted. fucking shit. got crap frm teachers and the principal and vice principal. and the DM. for scolding fuck. what the hell. im on mc. what the fuck does the fuckin teacher want me to do during PE. furthermore i've changed into my fuckin PE attire. what the fuck is his fuckin problem. its my way of speakin. what the fuck. fuckin Asswipe. Bleah. this sucks. unlucky.

- gary went ~~psycho~~3:08 PM

some bitch changed my msn password. fuck.

- gary went ~~psycho~~2:55 PM

Bitched on the Tuesday, March 29, 2005.

woah.. rotting at home for 2 Freakin Days. and i do mean 2 Freaking days. my god. its so Freakin Boring. i wonder whats with all the Freaking... bah who cares. been eatin the chinese snack thingy called dunno what shan charrr or whatever. lols. darn just love em. drinkin milk~ rottin in front of the comp. lols. The reason i can do this is because. i got 2 DAYS of MC. lols. for gettin hung over? my god. haha bah. anyways. lazy to post anything and nothing much is happening so. cherios.

- gary went ~~psycho~~12:11 PM

Bitched on the Friday, March 25, 2005.

my god. im bored. bored. bored.

- gary went ~~psycho~~5:58 PM

Bitched on the Monday, March 21, 2005.

Before you buy your Rubberised bands. please do know what they stand for.
those giodano(or whatever that shop is) ones are just simply fake. so dont bother bout those.
here goes.

yellow, LAF for cancer research
Sky blue, to cultivate peace and fight global hunger
Green, for people who want to save the Earth
Pink, if you want to join the fight against breast cancer
Black and white interlocked, against racism
Lilac, in support of tsunami relief
red, save the environment

- gary went ~~psycho~~5:13 PM

read this thru a forum...its kinda long...here goes
BANANAS. Containing three natural sugars - sucrose, fructose and glucose combined with fiber, a banana gives an instant,sustained and substantial boost of energy. Research has proven that just two bananas provide enough energy for a strenuous 90-minute workout. No wonder the banana is the number one fruit with the world's leading athletes. But energy isn't the only way a banana can help us keep fit. It can also help overcome or prevent a substantial number of illnesses and conditions, making it a must to add to our daily diet.

Depression: According to a recent survey undertaken by MIND amongst people suffering from depression, many felt much better after eating a banana. This is because bananas contain tryptophan, a type of protein that the body converts into serotonin, known to make you relax, improve your mood and generally make you feel happier.

PMS: Forget the pills - eat a banana. The vitamin B6 it contains regulates
blood glucose levels, which can affect your mood.

Anemia: High in iron, bananas can stimulate the production of hemoglobin
in the blood and so helps in cases of anemia.

Blood Pressure: This unique tropical fruit is extremely high in potassium yet low in salt, making it the perfect to beat blood pressure. So much so, the US Food and Drug Administration has just allowed the banana industry to make official claims for the fruit's ability to reduce the risk of blood pressure and stroke

Brain Power: 200 students at a Twickenham (Middlesex) school were helped through their exams this year by eating bananas at breakfast, break, and lunch in a bid to boost their brain power. Research has shown that the potassium-packed fruit can assist learning by making pupils more alert.

Constipation: High in fiber, including bananas in the diet can help restore normal bowel action, helping to overcome the problem without resorting to laxatives.

Hangovers: One of the quickest ways of curing a hangover is to make a banana milkshake, sweetened with honey. The banana calms the stomach and, with the help of the honey, builds up depleted blood sugar levels, while the milk soothes and re-hydrates your system.

Heartburn: Bananas have a natural antacid effect in the body, so if you suffer from heartburn, try eating a banana for soothing relief.

Morning Sickness: Snacking on bananas between meals helps to keep blood sugar levels up and avoid morning sickness.

Mosquito bites: Before reaching for the insect bite cream, try rubbing the affected area with the inside of a banana skin. Many people find it amazingly successful at reducing swelling and irritation.

Nerves: Bananas are high in B vitamins that help calm the nervous system.

Overweight and at work: Studies at the Institute of Psychology in Austria found pressure at work leads to gorging on comfort food like chocolate and crisps. Looking at 5,000 hospital patients, researchers found the most obese were more likely to be in high-pressure jobs. The report concluded that, to avoid panic-induced food cravings, we need to control our blood sugar levels by snacking on high carbohydrate foods every two hours to keep levels steady.

Ulcers: The banana is used as the dietary food against intestinal disorders because of its soft texture and smoothness. It is the only raw fruit that can be eaten without distress in over-chronicler cases. It also neutralizes over-acidity and reduces irritation by coating the lining of the stomach.

'Temperature' control: Many other cultures see bananas as a "cooling" fruit that can lower both the physical and emotional temperature of expectant mothers. In Thailand, for example, pregnant women eat bananas to ensure their baby is born with a cool temperature.

Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD): Bananas can help SAD sufferers because they contain the natural mood enhancer tryptophan.

Smoking: Bananas can also help people trying to give up smoking. The B6
and B12 they contain, as well as the potassium and magnesium found in them, help the body recover from the effects of nicotine withdrawal.

Stress: Potassium is a vital mineral, which helps normalize the heartbeat, sends oxygen to the brain and regulates your body's water balance. When we are stressed, our metabolic rate rises, thereby reducing our potassium levels. These can be rebalanced with the help of a high-potassium banana
snack.

Strokes: According to research in "The New England Journal of
Medicine," eating bananas as part of a regular diet can cut the risk of
death by strokes by as much as 40%!

Warts: Those keen on natural alternatives swear that if you want to kill off a wart, take a piece of banana skin and place it on the wart, with the yellow side out. Carefully hold the skin in place with a plaster or surgical tape!

So, a banana really is a natural remedy for many ills. When you compare it
to an apple, it has four times the protein, twice the carbohydrate, three
times the phosphorus, five times the vitamin A and iron, and twice the
other vitamins and minerals. It is also rich in potassium and is one of
the best value foods around. So maybe its time to change that well-known
phrase so that we say, "A banana a day keeps the doctor away!"

PS: Bananas must be the reason monkeys are so happy all the time!

PPS: Banana can also be used as a sex tool for both sexes. After playing, then makan it lar.

- gary went ~~psycho~~5:10 PM

Bitched on the Sunday, March 20, 2005.

woah. heard this nice song on mtv. damn niceee. its by akon called lonely. another song was by Unwritten Law called Save me. wahh. must find must find

- gary went ~~psycho~~3:05 PM

my god. its so freakin boring. rotting at home on the LAST day OF THE FUCKIN HOLIDAYS. omg. im so gonna fucking die when we go back to school. the damn comp at fixed up yet. gotta go to sim lim to flash what bios. omg. i just cant simply wait. bah. im rotting. im rottin. im rottin. im bored. im boreded. im dead. hahaha. anyways. Thank you lynchee for helpin me get over all my crappy feelings. hah! you're a great help lols. lalala. i feel so much damn better now. except for the fact that it's BORING!. god.

*newly added*
sorry sorry. i forgot to thank the rest of my friends for all their help and support also =D

- gary went ~~psycho~~12:21 PM

Bitched on the Saturday, March 19, 2005.

bah. today. hmm. flagggg day.. =/ met luke 1st then went to tampines to meet sean. bah. ate breakfast. than we went to get the Tins. lols. as soon as we got our tins, we went to change into our own clothes instead of the uniform. ahahah. so went around doing nothing. hmm. than me and luke sat outside cheers.. waiting for sean cos he went to meet his cousin for something... so we sat there.. just rottttt.... so freaking boring.. can die.. =/ the whole day was Boring.
the only exciting part was that..................................
I BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF BOXERS! BEST OF ALL! its a joe boxer with SPONGE BOB PRINTS! lols. i know i know its hella common. But.... WHO CARES?. hah! no need to mourn over my old Levi boxers no more =x hahaha. hmm and my new comp is currently being fixed up. cant be fixed by today.. sad =*(

- gary went ~~psycho~~7:11 PM

Bah!!!! im not awake yet!!! sigh. waking up so early just to go for Flag Day. gaud. i wonder how im gonna stand there. i'm prolly gonna sleep standing up. =x lols. so boring so boring. wanted to wake up at 7.30 but my aunt woke me up at 7. lols. so i got nothing better to do. i turned on the laptop and started using? =x haha. bah mtv now also no nice songs. gahhhh im bored im tired im bbored im sleepy im bored im depressed. im bored im sad. whyyyyyy aint she back... whyyyyyy....

- gary went ~~psycho~~7:29 AM

Bitched on the Friday, March 18, 2005.

sigh.. these are the only few things i have left of her.. they are more precious than anything this world can throw at me. except her. sigh. i'd risk everything if i had loosed these pictures. i treasure them more than anything.. even my life

- gary went ~~psycho~~10:51 PM

bah. i really wonder. why, unlike my other relationships. this one is so unforgettable. Everywhere i go. its her i think of. anything i do its her i think of.
i guess this aint like other relationships. its totally different. thoses were the best days of my life. but i really do hope that there'd be better days ahead. i guess it takes time to heal. but i often ponder how long it would take to heal.
Today.. hmm. went to meet Wen yang today.. i left my house at 1.. then he told me come after 3.30. i was like WTF? oh crap. what am i to do. so i took a walk down memory lane. i took bus 17 to bedok 85.. i didnt wanna go to the next stop.. i walked to the bus stop opposite huifang's block. took bus 14. i guess these 2 buses are the buses i most often take when i was with her.. sigh. lookin at all the buildings which was so familiar. been months since i last seen em. sigh.. i still can remember those days when we took 14 to suntec just for sunday church in the wee hours of the day. i'd wake up at 5 just to go church with her.we would reach there around 7.30 provided we dont miss the bus. then we would que up in line to go in. as we proceed in, at the entrance they would give us a chop on our right hand. then we would go in and place our bibles or jacket on the sit and head to the food court. we often see her most "loved" aunty in the church hall. in the morning we usually would have Popiahs and Chai tao guays or char quay tiaos. after that we would go up and take a rest b4 the sermons start. dispite the rests, i still sometimes sleep during the sermons. it would end at 11. then we would go for lunch and just continue walking around or just go back to my house. then i would send her home.. sigh. that was the past.. okok enough with the side traacking. i reached plaza sing at around 3. and that ass was ready already. so we spent our entire day rotting at orchard.. waiting for his beloved. sigh.. then i went home.. after she came up and find him.

sighs.. life's.. a never ending suffering for me.

- gary went ~~psycho~~10:34 PM

Bitched on the Thursday, March 17, 2005.

Damn. life's boring. lucky i'm going out later. woohoo. haahhaa. going to slack again. like that day. lols =D cant wait. lols. sigh.. i still miss her.. howw? i duno..

- gary went ~~psycho~~7:58 PM

sigh.. the happy times we used to have.. its all gone. gotta forget bout it. i've gotta throw it all back..

- gary went ~~psycho~~7:26 PM

Bitched on the Wednesday, March 16, 2005.

Oh man.... there goes my Laptop's adaptor. lols. i was talkin half way to my friend. when i heard a *PoorP* in my laptop's adapotor and suddenly the screen went black. oh fuck. i tried to turn on the laptop. cannot on. lols. die die. wahahah i plugged out the cable frm the adaptor. lols. crap i touched it and it was burning. wahahah =x oh mannn~

bah. mum just got back. got nagged.

- gary went ~~psycho~~9:05 PM

fuckin shit. that scared the shit outta me. the fact that i thought i had lost the photoframe that she gave. with our pictures scared the fuckin shit outta me. but im relief that i found it. these are the only things that i have of her. so i guess i gotta treasure em and cherish it well.. lets see what i got with me. i have the ring we bought.. the rubber duck.. the shirts she gave me.. the cup which i'd always give her water when shes at my house.. now im the only 1 who drinks out of the cup and thats the only cup i drink out of. theres even a bottle of mineral water which we shared which is still in my room... i know i sound like some lunatic. who cares.. and the only thing i have left is the memories.. sigh..

- gary went ~~psycho~~3:27 PM

Forgetting how long it was.
when i last heard you
it reminded me of your favourite story
i've been thinking for quite sometime
i started to forget.
was it that i did something wrong.

you cried and told me
that fairytales are lies.
and that i can never be your prince.
maybe you dont know.
but since u said you love me
the stars in my heaven has been lighted up.

i dream of becoming the angel that you love in a fairytale
spreading my arms
turning them into wings, protecting you
you must believe
believe that we will become a part of the fairytale
living in a blissful life.

you cried and told me
that fairytales are lies.
and that i can never be your prince.
maybe you dont know.
but since u said you love me
the stars in my heaven has been lighted up.

i will become the angel that you love in a fairytale
spreading my arms
turning them into wings,to protect you
you must believe
believe that we will become a part of the fairytale
living in a blissful life.

hahah oops. just a english version of a nice song.
Guang Liang - Tong hua
Translated by me!
sorry bout the direct translations.
my chinese suck.
TOTALLY!

- gary went ~~psycho~~2:21 PM

im a pathetic person,

with a pathetic soul,
with a pathetic life,
with a pathetic future,
with nothing ahead of me,
i wonder,
how am i to survive in this harsh world,
it's practically impossible,
but i still gotta strive,
but even if i become a manager of some huge company,
or i become a beggar,
i'll still have to die,
so whats the use,
my life is already pathetic enough.
i often ponder,
whats there in life for me,
i guess,
the answer is still yet to come,
it depends on what i aim for,
i can be hella rich,
or i can be hella poor,
its all up to me,
but even if im hella rich,
i may not be happy.
but even if im hella poor,
i still can be happy.
i guess no one's gonna read this,
my tagbox is totally useless,
im like the only loser there,
talkin to myself.
sigh,
i guess there aint anyone more pathetic than me right now,
i wanna lead a blissful life,
but its impossible,
im tryin to cheer myself up everyday,
everytime i think of the past,
i either slap or hit myself,
trying to make me stop,
this wont work forever.
sigh.
pathetic
me.
pathetic
life.

- gary went ~~psycho~~2:03 PM

lols. yesterday came home at 2+..
damn sleepy. lols. now summore wake up at 7am.. woah. sadded. had some boooze yesterday. than went to the pasir ris townpark.saw this cool graff. damn sweet.. its some guy with a mushroom hat? with wings.lols. we Retardly stood infront of the picture and took pictures. hahahaah. when weekeong sends it to me. i'll post it up. hmm. than we walked to downtown east. lols. i was dumb enough to jump over some post. and *Zaaaaa* OMG. my... my... tore! Lols. not pants la. SIANDED. Levis leh!. lols hmm. then we went Downtown east. start makin fun of people everywhere. then went to play pool for a few rounds. lols. damn now still got remedial. and im still dead tired.

- gary went ~~psycho~~7:17 AM

Bitched on the Tuesday, March 15, 2005.

going out to meet my friends now.
tomorrow got remedial.
im prolly gonna screw my life up.
who cares.

- gary went ~~psycho~~10:31 PM

i really hope u remember this...
i know its prolly spelt wrongly. who cares.
here goes.
munjit tunsit piahare

- gary went ~~psycho~~5:00 PM

looking back at the past.
everything just seems so carefree.
everything just seems so happy.
everything just seems like im in heaven.
everything just seems as though our love would never fade away.
everything just seems so real.
everything just seems to make me hope it never ends.
everything just seems to never make me sad.
everything just makes me love her.
everything seems to never end.
but it has ended.
looking into the present.
everything seems so torturous
everything seems so sad.
everything seems like im in hell.
everything just seems as though i'll be dwelling here forever.
everything just seems so fake.
everything seems to make me hope it had never ended.
everything just makes me miss her.
everything just seems to make me wanna love her more.
but its too late.
everything is gone now.
thanks to my selfish behaviour.
my possessive attitude.
my sucky self.

Im currently leading a life of hell.
a life of alcohol.
a life of never ending pain.
a meaningless life.
a painful life.

i wished i had.
never hurt her.
never lied to her.
never let her go.

there goes my cheerful lifestyle.
here comes my sorrowful life.

i guess i'll never be the same again.
knowing her was a milestone.
she made me do things i never thought i was able to do.
she encouraged me as if nothing was impossible.
she loved me like no other.
she was my guardian angel.
but i abandoned her.
thanks to my selfish acts.

i wish i was dead.
banged down by a car.
fall down from a building.
poisoned by someone.
attacked by a disease.
hunted by someone.
striked by lightning.
but i guess none of these will ever happen to me.

life is meaningless.
it has totally lost its meaning to me.

nothing will ever bring her back to me.
never will i be loved by her again.

- gary went ~~psycho~~4:28 PM

Bitched on the Monday, March 14, 2005.

~ its almost 2 months...
since i last walked the route i go to take bus 17.
since i took bus 17.
since i went to bedok.
since i went on a outing.
since i met her.
since i talked to her.
since she loved me.
since i went to east coast park.
since i went to church.
since i went to suntec.
since i wasnt bored.
since i was happy.
since i was loved.
since... everything.. sigh..

Im living a life of a total failure,
a reject. a nobody.
sigh. my studys are getting worse.
i miss her so badly. but nobody cares.
im rotting at home everyday.
im leading a lifeless live.
im lifeless. totally lifeless.
i feel worse than a beggar.
im pathetic.
im dead.
all dead.
all gone.

- gary went ~~psycho~~8:43 PM

Bitched on the Tuesday, March 01, 2005.

hmm.. guess im finally over it.. I hope. but i still do miss and think of her.. anyways. Lets continue with life.

School.
school was boring these few weeks. AS usual. my god. hahaha. my common tests results wasnt the best. but i did pass all except my maths. which was a killer paper. oh my god. lols. just did my Social studies and Geog on monday. hmm. I'm confident that i'll pass my social but as for my geog. oh mah god. i skipped the 1st question. lols but luckly it was only 3 points. hmm. the 2nd question was O...k. still able to do it. but i dont know whether i went out of point.hmm. anyways. woohoo. i topped my English and physics =X lols. not braggin here` just saying =p.

Life.
hmm Life is also boring these few weeks AS usual. But woopie. i got my New toy! hahaha havent fixed up yet. still got missin parts. but who cares. the main frame is already there. hahaha =D Omg i love it so much. I cant believe my parents actually supported me to get this. hahaha =D who cares. anyways. its a Skyline! lols. hmm. im lonely as usual. but haha im still surrounded with girls to talk to. =D~ oops. ahahah kiddins. lalala. bleah. im simply bored. my Laptop is currently SCREWED. thanks to my sis. sigh. cant even login. die lar. how am i to survive without My LAPTOP! omg omg omg. anyways. O lvl results were the killer among my friends. Damn man. i had frens gettin from 32 to 37 points. hahah. i also had frens scoring Real well. but she still so sad. =/ and my pri sch fren. hahaha poor him. scored 14 but failed english. haha =x anyways. i guess im stopping here.
Endinoff-.
Ciaoz! Take Care! Enjoy Life! Screw all things that get in yer way!

- gary went ~~psycho~~8:47 PM