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the aristocrat
[ about Him ]
* name gary
* age 18
* dob 21sept1987
* dateofdeath soon
Bitched on the Friday, July 20, 2007.
WOO im back! from oblivion! omg, school's terrorizing me. Life's is uh.. something worse than terrorizing ... me. Work's Scratching and biting me, literally...
HERE ARE SOME OF MY SCHOOL WORK! AHAHA too bad. as usual, things never change. im still as lazy to blog as ever.
Well, my sister just called. They were on the way to the hospital i think, maybe there already. my grandfather aka Gong Gong has passed on. Well, he's moving on to a better place, where there'll be free flow of whatever he wants. His passing will really affect me, im sure bout it. It's not that im happy, but neither am i sad, cos i know God has better things planned ahead for him. The heavens cried these few days, well its up to you to believe, but i do, cos i know my grandfather's really worth their tears. Im not crying now, cos i know he wouldn't want me to. He was strong himself, and he gave strength to others. A really inspiring figure, someone i really admire. His spirit will live on forever in us. I'm not going to fail him. His talks with me, advice, im going to heed it all. I'm not going to let him down.
He's remembered, adored, respected, loved, was loved, will be loved, especially by me.
Well, My Grandfather's been in the hospital for months.. and in the icu for weeks.. it really tears me apart to see him like that. Everyone's prepared... so i guess i gotta face the fact.. well, i dont know how or whats gonna happen to me when he moves on.. i just cry at night, everytime i think of him. how he took care of me for 2 years when i was like 3 or 4.. during the lantern festival, he would buy me those lanterns with the lights and sounds... and he would bring me down to the playground to play.. bring me to the mama shop to get sweets. the fishes he'd catch when he goes fishin... the jokes he'd make.. the times he made me smile and laugh.. were just priceless.. the first time i've ever appreciated music was thanks to him... back in 95.. when he came over to the states to visit us.. one night in my room, he placed the earphone in my ear.. and told me to slowly listen to it.. and slowly.. i began loving music... i guess without him, i might never have loved music. he'd tuck me in at night, cos it gets really cold.. sigh.. the times were spent.. i could never forget.. the great advice he'd give, his jovial spirit... just never cease to amaze me.. i still remember when i brought angela to see him at the hospital like 2 years back, he kept making jokes..even in the past months.. at the hospital, he was making jokes.. right before the day of his operation.. he's my all time role model.. never givin up hope.. the past few weeks in the icu... hes been crying.. and it really rips me apart inside.. i'm always trying to smile trying to show the happy face infront of him, cos i know he wouldnt want me to be sad.. well, i couldnt hold back the first time i saw em in the icu... thankfully.. i learnt to hold back my tears.. it really hurts to see such a loved one in such a condition.. it sucks....
Its not that i dont love my other grandfather.. its just that we never spoke to each other before.. and he passed on when i was much younger.. both my grandfathers actually knew each other
Well, God has better things planned ahead for him... all im hoping for is that he passes on peacefully...
i really love you.. i dont know how to express how much i love you infront of you...you're the only grandfather i talk to.. it really sucks.. that i didnt take effort to visit you more often.. im really sorry... i regret every single bit of that.. please forgive me..
